About me

Hi, I’m Cornelius Aurelius.

You can call me Cornelius Aurelius. If you are wondering how to say the second bit, it is pronounced or-rel-lee-us. Yes, it sounds like I should be arriving on a horse with a sword. In reality, I am probably wearing black clothes, a cap, and trying not to walk into a colour-based disaster.

If life was testing me, it forgot to send the revision guide, the answer sheet, the enlarged print, and apparently half the colours. I am colour blind — which, for most of my life, was not something I wanted people to know. I did everything I could to keep it quiet, hide it, laugh it off, guess my way through it, and pretend I was fine, because being judged for something you already feel insecure about is a special kind of exhausting.

My eyesight has been a long-running personal inconvenience. School often felt like everyone else could read the board while I was trying to decode ancient fog. I wanted to be a professional footballer all my life, then spent years pinging unbelievable 40-yard passes straight to opposition players who were often standing completely by themselves. Lovely technique. Terrible recipient. #ColourBlindProblems

Looking back, I wish I had someone who helped me understand colour blindness earlier — not in a boring medical leaflet way, but in a real-life way. How do you adapt in sport? How do you protect your confidence? How do you stop hiding? How do you navigate school, careers, clothes, work, football, pressure, judgement, and all the small daily things people with normal colour vision never even think about?

The mad part is that colour blindness is often estimated to affect around 300 million people worldwide, yet there still does not seem to be enough practical, human, confidence-protecting help for navigating life with it. I tried business, hated selling, failed enough times to make failure ask for a break, and still somehow came out of it with one useful conclusion: maybe my job is to turn the awkward, painful, ridiculous stuff into something useful before someone else wastes years blaming themselves.

The origin story

I did not “see the world differently” in a motivational poster way. I literally saw it differently.

My life has involved a lot of guessing, squinting, pretending, adapting, and hoping nobody noticed I had just made a decision based on a colour I could not confidently see.

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The classroom blur

I remember sitting in class unable to properly see the teacher’s handwriting on the board. Everyone else seemed to be receiving the information. I was receiving fog, pressure, and the quiet feeling that maybe I was the problem.

The professional football dream

I wanted to be a professional footballer pretty much all my life. The problem was, I also had a special talent for playing unbelievable 40-yard passes directly to the opposition, usually to some opponent standing completely on his own like I had personally selected him for delivery. Then I would get substituted and wonder why the manager was not appreciating my creativity. #colourblindproblems

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The fence incident

I once painted my family home fence the wrong colour. Other people call that a mistake. I call it an early field experiment in why colour should not be trusted as the only source of information.

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The odd socks era

I went to school wearing odd socks because I genuinely thought they were the same colour. My sarcastic brothers, being the loving emotional support team they were, often asked if I got dressed in the dark.

BLACK

My accidental uniform

Pretty much all my clothes are black. Not because I am trying to be mysterious. It is because black removes a lot of colour decisions. I do not have to stand there wondering if two colours match, clash, betray me, or make me look like I escaped from a broken highlighter packet.


Black also helps with my light sensitivity because it does not bounce as much brightness back at me. A cap helps too. It shades my eyes, reduces glare, and makes me look slightly more like I have my life together than I actually do.


Adaptation became part of my personality. I learned to build systems around the way I actually work, not the way everyone else assumes I should work.

I am not trying to turn failure into a sad story. / I am trying to turn it into useful equipment.

That is the whole point of my work. If I struggled with something and found a way to explain it, game it, teach it, design it, or prevent it hurting someone else, then the failure was not wasted. It became material.

Entrepreneurship vs creation

I spent 10+ years trying to become an entrepreneur. There was one small problem: I hated selling.

Which is inconvenient, because selling is quite a large part of being an entrepreneur. Also, for years I could not spell entrepreneur without making the English language file a complaint.

For more than ten years, I studied how to sell. Marketing. Psychology. Persuasion. Offers. Funnels. Side hustles. Dropshipping. Print on demand. Website flipping. eBay. Etsy. Amazon. Forex. Crypto. The whole circus.

The more I learned, the more I understood how to influence people. And the more I understood influence, the more I hated the version of selling that feels like tricking someone into buying something useless, overpriced, or wrong for them.

Confession: I was not bad at learning business. I was bad at making money from things I did not feel proud to sell.

I have always tried to keep a guilt-free conscience. That sounds noble until you realise it can make you overthink everything. What if this goes wrong for them? What if they need that money? What if I help them badly? What if I should change this first? What if, what if, what if.

I think guilt made me quietly sabotage my own hard work. Not because I did not want to succeed. Because I did not want to succeed by becoming someone I would not trust.

So I stopped trying to force myself to become the version of an entrepreneur I hated. I went back to what I think I always was underneath it all: an inventor and creator.

I once heard a filmmaker talk about putting a hidden piece of himself into his work. That idea stayed with me. I started creating things that had a piece of me in them: a painful experience, a strange emotion, a struggle I had, a struggle someone close to me had, or a problem I wished someone had explained to me earlier.

That changed everything. When I create from that place, I do not feel like I am manipulating someone. I feel like I am handing them something I wish existed when I needed it.

My goal is simple: I want to create things so useful that I do not have to “sell” them in the dirty way. People should feel helped first. The value should be obvious. The support should feel deserved.

If I could teach selling in three words, it would be this: provide love, hope, desire. Not fake desire. Not manufactured insecurity. Real value. Real hope. Real help.

The missing piece of the jigsaw

All my life I felt like I had the ideas, but not the translation tool.

I have always felt a bit odd, a bit delusional, and a bit outside the normal operating system. Not delusional in the “I am a toaster” way. Delusional in the “I think I can learn anything if I obsess long enough” way.

Unlimited potential is lonely

I have always had an “I can do anything” mentality. That sounds empowering, but it can also be lonely and frustrating. A lot of people do not think about potential that way. Some people live with limits they have accepted so deeply that they try to hand them to you like family jewellery.


That would not bother me if they were peaceful and happy. But often, the same people trying to shrink your belief are miserable themselves, living day to day like underpaid actors in a life they did not audition for.

Failure became data

I do not just try things once and fail. That would be too normal. I usually enter a hyper-focused obsession tunnel, try the same thing more times than any reasonable person should legally be allowed to, fail in every possible direction, then somehow discover three new ways to fail that were not even on the original menu.


If there was a governing body for overtrying, I would have been banned years ago. I would be stood outside the stadium of my latest obsession with a lifetime suspension, arguing with security like, “Just one more attempt, I think I’ve cracked it this time.”


For years, those failures just looked like failures. Recently, they started looking like pieces. Random skills. Random experiments. Random scars. Then AI arrived, and suddenly the pieces started clicking together.

AI did not give me the ideas. It helped me communicate the madness in a form other people could actually use.

Books. Games. Inventions. Art. Music. Websites. Frameworks. I use AI as a communication engine — a way to shape, test, translate and build the ideas that were already in me. The insight is mine. The struggle is mine. The mission is mine. The tool helps me get it out of my head and into the world before I talk myself out of sharing it.


A perspective I think about a lot is Vincent van Gogh’s art not being appreciated in the way it deserved while he was alive. My weird thought is: what if everything I ever make is not appreciated or useful until 500 years later? Strangely, that helps me. It makes me less scared of judgement. It gives me permission to create without needing the present moment to clap immediately.


Another useful insight I heard from will.i.am was that creatives are like sponges. Sometimes they need to rinse themselves out just to get the creativity out of their system so they can be creative again. Good idea, bad idea, strange idea, embarrassing idea — sometimes it just has to come out. Rinse. Repeat. Create. Rinse again.

The Equilibrium Engine

A life operating system for people whose life is fighting itself.

Not so long ago, I went into one of my super-delusional, hyper-focused modes where I randomly decided I was going to try and figure out the theory of everything. Normal people make a cup of tea. I apparently try to explain existence.


What I found might turn out to be completely wrong when actual scientists review it properly. I am fully aware of that. But I still found the idea interesting, useful, and weirdly powerful. The rough idea was this: all existence is a self-balancing informational system where Energy, Information and Awareness continuously rebalance until wasted energy is minimised and equilibrium is restored. Then I asked a more useful question: what if humans are also trying to reach equilibrium?

(Energy + Information + Awareness) across (Health + Wealth + Love + Flow + Structured Pain + Perspective) → δJ → 0
Where this is going
HealthBody, mind, appearance, energy, recovery and physical presentation.
WealthEarn, stack, save, multiply, stability and long-term security.
LoveFamily, friendship, romance, attraction, desirability and relational safety.
FlowDeep focus, meaningful work, immersion and enjoyment of time.
Structured PainDiscipline, delayed gratification and growth through challenge.
PerspectiveMeaning, reframing, identity, self-image and long-term viewpoint.

The simple version

Your system is either aligned or misaligned. The engine uses Energy, Information and Awareness to regulate the six pillars of life while reducing Wasted Energy, so your system drift falls toward zero and you move toward Personalised Equilibrium.


Personalised Equilibrium does not mean copying someone else’s perfect routine. It means building a life around who you actually are, what you can sustain, and what stops your life fighting itself.

Wasted Energy

Wasted Energy is anything leaking life force out of the system: toxic relationships, wrong career alignment, emotional chaos, unresolved pain, distraction, shallow busyness, bad decision loops, confusion, self-neglect, and internal conflict.


The aim is not just to get more energy. The aim is to stop losing it in places that never deserved it.

Observe the six pillars

Look at Health, Wealth, Love, Flow, Structured Pain and Perspective as one connected system, not six unrelated problems.

Detect the drift

Ask where instability is increasing. Which pillar is leaking energy? Which weak link is making the rest of life harder?

Personalise the correction

Do not copy random advice. Calibrate the fix around your biology, skills, boundaries, temperament, stress tolerance and identity.

Reduce wasted energy

Remove friction, redirect effort, close leaks, and stop pouring energy into systems that keep destabilising you.

Repeat the loop

Explain → Observe → Self-Assess → Personalise → Adjust. The engine is not a one-time fix. It is a recalibration loop.

How I try to see people

“Everybody is a Genius. But If You Judge a Fish by Its Ability to Climb a Tree, It Will Live Its Whole Life Believing that It is less capable.”

That quote changed how I looked at myself and other people. It helped me stop judging people by skills their life was never built around. It also helped me stop feeling insecure when people judged me by standards that did not fit how I actually see, think, learn or create.

I imagine the human race like different species of animals. A cheetah might judge a sloth for moving slowly. A sloth might judge a cheetah for always rushing. Neither is wrong. They are built differently, living differently, and surviving differently. The mistake is judging others by your own way of life, then judging yourself by someone else’s.

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The cheetahFast, intense, impatient, built for bursts. Not wrong. Just different.
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The slothSlow, deliberate, low-drama, energy-saving. Not lazy by default. Just different.
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The fishBrilliant in water, ridiculous up a tree. Environment matters.
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The owlQuiet, watchful, strange hours, sees patterns others miss.
Minimising Wasted Energy

Most people do not need more pressure. They need fewer invisible leaks.

One of the ideas I care about most is helping people minimise wasted energy before stress overload takes over their day. Because once someone is too stressed, too drained, too confused or too emotionally overloaded, even simple decisions can start to feel impossible.

Stress often builds before people notice

Stress does not always arrive as one giant explosion. Sometimes it creeps in through small leaks: bad routines, unclear goals, toxic environments, poor recovery, money pressure, relationship chaos, identity confusion, too many decisions, too much noise, and not enough awareness of what is actually draining you.


That is why I talk about personalised systems. Not everyone needs the same routine, the same advice, the same morning plan or the same life template. People need systems that fit how they actually work, so they can reduce friction before the day becomes too heavy to carry.

Personalised systems prevent overload

The goal is to help people notice their patterns earlier: what drains them, what stabilises them, what causes drift, what makes them overthink, what makes them shut down, and what helps them come back to themselves.


If you can reduce wasted energy early enough, you may reduce stress before it turns into full overload. That is the practical side of Personalised Equilibrium: build a life that stops fighting you so much.


Keep a look out on corneliusaurelius.com because I have free ebooks and tools around this kind of stuff.

Keep Moving Forward
Keep moving forward does not mean pretending everything is fine. It means refusing to let one bad chapter become the whole book.

I have failed at enough things to know that stopping can sometimes feel logical. But if I had stopped after school, football, business, bad eyesight, colour confusion, failed projects, guilt, overthinking or one more embarrassing attempt at trying to spell entrepreneur, none of this would exist.


Moving forward, for me, is not always dramatic. Sometimes it is one more page. One more game. One more idea. One more upload. One more attempt after the last attempt made me look like an idiot. The trick is not to move perfectly. The trick is to keep moving long enough for the failures to start connecting.

What I build

I make things for the people who are usually misunderstood before they are helped.

My work usually starts with a problem that annoyed me, hurt me, confused me, or made me think: “Why has nobody explained this in a way normal people can actually use?”

Colour Blindness in FootballBooks, games and awareness tools to help players, parents, coaches and clubs make the game visible before judging the player.
Visibility
Colour-Blind GamesSimple, fast games that train players to use non-colour cues under pressure instead of relying only on colour.
Training
Equilibrium EngineA framework for detecting life drift, reducing wasted energy, and personalising the path back to stability.
Alignment
Stories, Art, Music & FilmCreative worlds built from emotional truth, strange ideas, failure, humour, and the need to make pain useful.
Creation
Jack of all trades / polymath energy

I used to think having too many interests was a problem. Now I think it might be the cheat code.

Some people are built to go deep into one lane forever. Other people are built more like a messy human toolbox: psychology, business, marketing, invention, football, colour blindness, AI, storytelling, music, games, art, philosophy, systems, and random 4am theories about existence.

The Leonardo da Vinci problem

I think about Leonardo da Vinci because he did not fit neatly into one box. Artist. Inventor. Thinker. Observer. Builder. Curious about everything. That kind of person can look scattered in a world that wants a simple job title, a simple niche, and a simple answer to the question: “So what do you do?”


My honest answer is usually: too many things, badly, repeatedly, until one of them starts making sense.


But maybe that is not a weakness anymore. Maybe in the next decade, the people who can connect strange interests together will have an advantage, because AI makes it easier to turn mixed knowledge into actual output.

The future might reward specific interests

If you feel like a jack of all trades, I believe the next decade could reward you — not because you randomly post everything everywhere, but because you learn how to organise your interests clearly.


I think content will increasingly be shown based on what people are interested in, not only based on who they follow. That means the creator with many interests does not have to crush themselves into one fake niche. They just need a better system.


The way I see it: create one main account that shows the full person, the full mind, and the full range of interests. Then create interest-specific handles that only post about one specific interest, so the audience knows exactly what they are getting.

Main account for the whole person. Specific handles for specific worlds.

That is how a polymath mind can stop looking chaotic and start looking organised. The main account says, “This is me.” The interest accounts say, “This is the part of me you came for.” Football colour blindness can have its own world. Music can have its own world. Inventions can have their own world. Art can have its own world. The person stays whole, but the content becomes easier to understand.

Where I think the world is going

The tool changes. The desire usually does not.

History repeats. Human behaviour repeats. First there is chaos, then order, then equilibrium, then the new normal. I think the next wave of useful products will come from AI tools built around things people have always wanted.

⚕️ Health

  • Physical health
  • Mental health
  • Appearance
  • Physical presentation

💷 Wealth

  • Earn
  • Stack / save
  • Multiply
  • Financial stability

❤️ Love

  • Family
  • Friendship
  • Romance
  • Attraction and desirability

🌊 Flow

  • Deep focus
  • Meaningful engagement
  • Enjoyment of time
  • Immersion

🔥 Structured Pain

  • Discipline
  • Delayed gratification
  • Growth through challenge
  • Becoming stronger

🧠 Perspective

  • Meaning making
  • Cognitive reframing
  • Long-term viewpoint
  • Identity and self-image
Most people still want to be healthier, wealthier, loved, focused, stronger, and able to make sense of life.

I think the future looks great for the people who adapt sooner rather than later — especially the creatives who are not afraid to share their creativity before the world gives them permission. The people who experiment early usually look weird first, then useful later.


I also think society will value authenticity more than ever over the next decade, even when that authenticity is not perfectly polished, perfectly safe, or perfectly politically correct. People are getting tired of fake voices, fake brands, fake confidence and fake lives. The more AI can produce average perfection, the more valuable real human weirdness becomes.


Anything old that was genuinely useful in its own time will probably become useful again in this time period, just wearing different clothes. Music, storytelling, communication, finding love, creativity and entertainment are not going away. They are going to find new ways of expressing themselves in the AI, ASI and AGI age.


I think gifted humans will find ways to collaborate with humans who are gifted at using AI, and together they will create things neither side could have created alone. Singer plus AI singer. Creator plus AI creator. Human taste plus machine speed. Human emotion plus machine scale.


That is why I want to keep creating now. The chaos comes first. Then order. Then equilibrium. Then the thing everyone laughed at becomes the new normal.

Support the work

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I am not trying to become rich by selling people useless rubbish. I am trying to build books, games, frameworks, stories and tools that make invisible problems easier to understand. You can look at my other work on corneliusaurelius.com. If the work helps you, inspires you, entertains you, or makes you want to see what I build next, you can tip below.

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